Gift of Life Recovery

A week ago, I was facing surgery for the first time since I underwent a psychic change through the process of recovery.
Lets be honest, the surgery was not life threatening although what was being corrected caused constant pain. I was not thrilled by the thought of someone cutting my groin area, too many things near and dear to me in that region! Like most men, I had put on the macho front about facing being cut, but was able to admit to those I was closest to the apprehension I felt. This was something I wouldn’t have done pre-recovery.

Apprehensive? Yes. I am over 60 and there is no real benefit of getting older from a physical standpoint, at least not that I have found so far. The thought of being put “under” is still a little scary; it is truly being put into a place of being powerless. I dreaded I’d hear the word “oops”, not something you want to hear when being cut in the south central region.

Things, as one would expect, went fine. There was certainly a great deal of pain after, and extensive bruising in areas I did not realize could be bruised. The night after surgery, I had a strange feeling that they had operated in the wrong place. After a nurse explained to me that the cut was north of the injured area, and that the surgeon went south under the skin, I felt relief mentally.

The miracle that has been given to me through recovery has been evident throughout this period.

I remained giving to others and did not go in to the poor me’s. Through out I have had the peace that conscious contact with a living higher power gives me. I have not felt alone, my higher power has been constantly there. My attitude has remained positive. I have realized each day that I am powerless over certain things, that recovery takes time; I have listened intently to those qualified to give me instructions and have heard and followed the instructions. I have not allowed myself to go beyond what I have been told is the proper things to do; my male machoism and ego has been kept in check. Intuitively I have known the right things to do; something that baffled me the last time I had surgery. Funny how this experience has mirrored the things that have happened in my life over the past fifteen years!

As a result of the wonderful growth and learning that has come through the life recovery process, I find myself slightly ahead of the recovery schedule I had been given and grateful for the time I have had to reflect and bask in the conscious contact. I have received a gift through recovery that up until this experience, I had never given any thought to! Man, it works if you work it, and in areas well outside of my addictions.

Interesting experience and great learning. Now I hope as things heal, I remain grateful and once again can find the golf game I had before constant pain! The process of life recovery has served me well through a life challenge, and for that I am truly grateful.