Guest blog from The IBC Network Foundation website:
I don’t know if it will ever go away. That sting the question brings.
When’s the next one?
Doesn’t she want a sister?
She does. She wants someone to love and to play with but I can’t give her that.
The questions make my stomach turn and that night I cry into my husband’s t-shirt until I’m too numb to cry anymore.
I push it down, I swallow the despair, and I move on.
Until the next question comes along.
Doesn’t he want kids?
Doesn’t he want one of his own?
He does. He wants kids to love and to spoil but I gave him our daughter and that’s enough for him.
I have so much guilt, so much anger and jealousy and pain. Every time I think I’m over it, I see a mother with her newborn or a photo of my friends with their kids and my heart breaks all over again.
I never realized how painful a question can be until I experienced it myself.
Whether it’s PCOS, infertility, cancer, or any other reason, our hurt is the same.
Please stop asking.
Please.
Erin
Stage 3 IBC Survivor
For my 24th birthday, I got cancer.
The IBC Network Foundation was founded by Terry Arnold as a 501c3 in August 2011. She has her sights set on funding research as fast as the donations will allow.
The purpose of The IBC Network Foundation is simple:
- To fund research regarding Inflammatory Breast Cancer.
- To provide an avenue to network proactive education to the general population as well as the medical community regarding Inflammatory Breast Cancer.
We attend research meetings, serve on grant committee’s, advocate, educate and run online support groups, just to list a few ways we spend our time