STREET SMART RECOVERY
I am a stay at home mom, Working at home as well, I Love working with and helping all people when and if I can.
I am currently working on my Website which I'm hoping to launch this year, I then will be promoting myself as an Online Researcher for Addictions,Overdoses,and Why are so many young people are subcoming to an early deathly overdose be it drugs, hangings,cutting........
As far as me placing myself in the topic of Addiction and Recovery goes, I have been there done that and seen it all to end, Peoples addictions and deaths by overdose and let me tell you one of the most memorable one was that of my Mother....I have been around addiction since birth and I am now 44 the same age as in which my mother went and I love life to much to put my children and friends through the pain and suffering that I had to endure at the ripe 'ol age of 21 Way to young, And just 2 yrs ago we lost my sons father to that deadly addiction he was just 48 and our son was only 3 very sad, I didnt hurt so much for me at the time because with addition along comes abuse that I had to suffer but My heart ached for the little boy who cried every night for his daddy to come home and if I could call heaven and ask for him, very sad indeed.
I know ther are alot of Professionals out there that are very helpful in this field but until you can actually live and walk and feel the emotions of this deadly disease, I dont think I need a degree to know what I'm talking about..I've already lived it! Walked It, Felt It.
With all that being said I would like to say Don't Take Life for Granted because there is and never will be a GARAUNTEE.......
fAITHLESLIE
There is a prayer from Saint Francis in which there were 3 sentences that caught my eye and made me think about the saying "When your not looking for love it will find you" I just got Married on Christmas Eve to a man I adore with all my heart, We just had a talk recently and I said to my husband, I Love you so much that to show you anymore, I would have to die for you, like Jesus died for us. Then within that week I stumbled across this Prayer, How powerful spiritual life can be, I thought,
"For it by Self Forgetting that One Finds"
"It is by forgiving that one is Forgivin"
"It is that by Dieing One wakes to Eternal Life"
How true these words spoke to me!
When I was Lost and All Alone "forgetting" all of my needs and giving to others is when I found My True Love.
When I forgave and let go of all the hatred that I was holding for so long I was Forgivin and found the Love I Longed For....
And by the thought of me even saying to my husband that I would Die for him made me realize that when I do die I will wake to Eternal Life.......
I'm grateful that I have the chance in this lifetime to really understand what it really feels like to have love for somebody so much that you would die for them...
As Jesus did for us
My Dearest Mother
It's a special loving memory
for 23yrs has passed us by,
I never thought that I could live without you
I still have to keep asking why,
Why our Lord had to take you away?
Why go through so much pain?
Why are there still no answers?
Where can I place the blame?
I am all these years the wiser,
I've been blessed with a family of my own,
I only hope that I've been givin,
Your Love and Strength to carry on.
I feel your warmth around me
I see your Love in my Childrens eyes
I hear your Happiness in thier Laughter
And your sadness amoung thier cries
How I long to have you here,
To do the things that mothers and daughters do
There are'nt enough words that I could say
To let you know just how much I MISS YOU!!
So I'm asking you for your guidance
For your strength when I need it most
For answers to questions I don't understand
For our Courage your Love and Hope.
When the day comes for me to pass
I'll listen for your voice
I'll hold my arms out for you to embrace
And our day will be here to Rejoice!!!
With that being said I will tell all I'm no hypercrite to addiction, I am A Recovering
Addict and Alcoholic,,
My expertise in Life is dealing with those that need a person and not a facility at first just a person that understands and knows first hand where they are without any judgements, Addicts sometimes never reachout on thier own and always wish that there was just one person thier to understand them, there needs,wants and not wants....
I also have teenagers oldest being 27 all the way down to 12 and a little 6yr old boy not to mention all the kids that are'nt mine that call me MA..Well I've helped with talking through cuttings, Dealing with teenage "Thrill Hangings" as they call it now,
Along with educating the awareness of sexual Identities and sexual health about not spreading disease.
I Research alot online to promote to all who reach for help, everyone has and needs an ANGEL!
FAITHLESLIE