Hitting The Brick Wall

How do we get out of a rut?

How many times have you found yourself stuck in rut and no matter where you turn, you seem to be hitting a brick wall?

Very recently, I found that no matter what I was doing, life seemed to be a huge struggle. I had a major virus on my computer, which stopped me communicating with the world, my car broke down, which stopped me getting out to see my clients and my phone got cut off! I also found myself getting stuck in traffic when I was able to finally able to get out! So now matter where I turned, I seemed to be hitting a brick wall.

I continued to persevere, simply because I am a single mom and an entrepreneur, therefore, if I do not work I do not have income, however since I was totally ignoring all of the hints that the Universe was giving me that I was heading in the wrong direction, the Universe decided to help me understand that I needed to take a rain check in order to refocus on what I am and what I had chosen to use my life for and so I ended up flat on my back with a relapse, following a neck injury sustained in a car accident 5 years.

For the first two days, I was on was on a morphine based medication and therefore, totally unaware of anything that was going on and on the third day I woke up to a whole lot of pain and the realization that I should have heeded all the warnings that I had been given. I chose to take it easy and was sure that I would be back on my feet the following week... not so!

After two weeks in bed, I decided that no matter what, I would be back at work on the following Monday... still not so! So on that Monday, I finally decided that I needed to truly revise my plans.

All was going so, so well. The plans that I had made were becoming actuality 12 months earlier than I had planned and I was being solicited left right and centre, so when I found myself lying on my back, it felt like I had been on a train track at 130kms an hour and that I had missed the turn, which left me feeling like I had hit a brick wall at full speed. I was left with no other choice than to revise the way I was living.

The questions that arose were;

Am I being true to myself?
Am I carrying other peoples burdens? (relating to being flat on my back due to both neck and back pains)
Where else am I refusing to see that I am being side-tracked?
What is it that I am running away from?

I complained that, this shouldn't be happening to me... I have worked so hard to get to this point and the proof, so many people are connecting and contacting me... I was given the reminder of all the warnings again i.e. you are not doing what you are supposed to when...

when life is a struggle,
when things break down all the time,
when you are angry all the time,
when your clients keep cancelling for very legitmate reasons,
when you are experiencing physical pain or illness,
when you are bored,

There were many other questions that arose from my self enforced introspection?

The image of the train and the missed turn were so present in my mind and was so strong from the first time when I emerged from my morphine endorsed blackout. They were so clear but I still resisted the fact that I missed the turn and ended up with an additional week in bed, by which time, I had fallen into the, "ME, THE VICTIM"mode, with the "WOE IS ME", running as the subtitle.

I saw, the self-created pattern representing itself again in full force... EGO had taken over again and I also saw very clearly the choice I could make; succumb to ego or make the conscious choice to regain once again take mastery of my life.

I chose to acknowledge and answer all of the questions and take full reign of my life, integrating the lessons learned through my own coaching and decided to recommit to those tasks that I had set out for my self in order to fulfill my dreams.

Today, I am back on that train and on track towards realizing, the goals I had previously set, which include developing leaders in South Africa amongst their wonderful, dynamic young people... people who have the desire to live and exist through their innovative and creative imaginations.

So my question to you today is,

"Where have you hit a brick wall in your life and what did you do in order to get out?"

If you are still sitting in front of your wall and are not sure how to get out, then contact me through skype - aaliceinw - or via email at jlaine@taupi.co.za or at my website below so that I may support you in moving forwards, backwards or sideways in order to find yourself back on track!