“Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.” Alcoholics Anonymous

""Take your life in your own hands, and what happens? A terrible thing: no one to blame." - Erica Jong

As I allow the power and presence of the One Infinite Source to move in, through, and as me; I reflect on what life was like before I made that connection: the secrets, the self-judgment, the anger, the despair, the anesthetizing of myself so I could shut off the hatred of self-talk. I made that connection not because someone said I had to but because I knew without a doubt that if I did not change the way I was living my life I would either be dead by choosing another bad relationship or I would kill someone by driving while under the influence. I took a leap of faith, not knowing there was a net; just knowing that life couldn’t get any worse. I am not saying my road was easy. I got involved in life. I showed up. I admitted to God, to myself, and to others the exact nature of our wrongs. I took my life in my own hands and realized I had no one to blame but me. We can stay in our stories of the past and allow it to color our present and our future – OR – we can recognize that the past is unchangeable and we can choose to learn from it and make different choices. If you don’t like a food, you choose not to eat it. If you don’t like what’s on TV, you choose to change the channel. If you don’t like your life, you can choose to make new choices and live from this point forward. I am grateful for my life; all of it. Would I love to do some of it different? OMG, yes. And so I choose to do that NOW. I love myself unconditionally. I spend time in silence. I write my thoughts out on paper. I volunteer. I choose to let go and let God.

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