Cindy – PMS and Painful Ovulations and her own healing!

Cindy is a beautiful 39-year-old woman for whom life has started to feel more comfortable in the past few years since she has made the choice to stop allowing her husband to abuse her in all kinds of way, specially verbally, psychologically and mentally.

Although she did not have a ‘hard-abusive’ childhood, I see she has been lacking positive messages from her parents, hence her choice of that specific mate in her youth.

Short of that teaching, she ended up with a poor self-esteem, married too young with a man who became a verbal persecutor and kept on criticizing her at every phrase, gesture, thought she could have.

Time came when she divorced. Fueled by her own accumulated frustration and pain coupled with enough people helping her realize she was not the bad woman he kept portraying her to be, she finally took her life in charge or at least set herself on a better path.

She comes to therapy to clean up her life and heal some past and unresolved issues. She is the mother of a beautiful young daughter who appears to be a cute angel.

We examine a lot of her inner wounds and we eventually graduate to her menstrual cycle.

When we both start examining her PMS, she reveals that in her case, it happens as a painful ovulation. I had never had such a case and I am glad she wants to explore her reality.
As usual, my famous words at the top of the page:
Painful Ovulations
Sufferings:
- Sharp pain, mostly on the left side
- Constant pain, soreness
- Anxious to know if it is just her ovulation or could be other medical problems
- Bloating
- Swelled enough that she is uncomfortable in her clothes
- Not even comfortable to look at herself in the mirror in those days
- Sadness from losing two children (in her past miscarriages)
- Self-doubt
- Is it my fault if I miscarriage?
- I cannot have children anymore (tubaligation)
Wow, with that in hand, you can see she is far from being happy in those moments.

We keep on exploring and she reveals that she has had many miscarriages before she could end up with one pregnancy that made it to term.
One of her realities, when she was still married, was that she had to be on fertility medicine to help her ovulate for apparently none was happening.
Of course, that became an added element for her husband to bash on her and make reproaches about her inadequacy to become pregnant without outside help.
Although he made constant derogatory comments about her infertility, he did not want to have sex more than once a month.
So, she felt she had to hurry up and become pregnant during her “medical ovulations”.
You can all guess there was a LOT OF STRESS going on.

So now, as always, we go on to find the possible pleasures hiding behind all that.

Pleasures:
- None appear at first sight!
- After a silence, she comes up with the fact that her ovulations might be a proof that she could still have children!
- A possible rebellion against my ex who always bashed on me for not becoming pregnant!
- A possible pleasure hiding in the proof that NO ONE CAN TAKE THAT FREEDOM FROM ME and I am NORMAL, I OVULATE! Even twice a month at times…

Needless to say she was totally surprised to find that out from her inner belief system.

Limiting belief: If I still ovulate and because it is so painful, THEN it is my proof that I am still very much a woman (contrary to my ex-husband’s belief).

Wow! What a revelation!
She really connected to the power her old brain had in setting her up with pain to finally believe in her feminine power and energy.
She left my office and scheduled for the next month.
Needless to say I was very curious to see her at our next appointment.
As Cindy comes back, she reveals she never felt her ovulation one bit. She herself had a hard time believing we have such inner power about healing ourselves.
As the months continued, she kept telling me she really had gotten the message that SHE WAS NORMAL without the need of her body to reinforce that belief with a useless ovulation pain.

I invite you to really introspect what messages your pains and symptoms are trying to convey. It is still the best medicine and best practice to become your intimate healer.

Welcome to yourself!